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Testimony, part 2

About a month or two after I rededicated my life, I contracted Asian type flu. The medications reacted within my body and I went into seizures and convulsions. I remember the pain as my facial muscles disfigured. My father and mother rushed me to the hospital, and I remember that I died in the emergency room, as the Dr's were trying to figure out what was wrong. During that time, I heard the dr's say that they were loosing me, that my BP had disappeared. I remember the bright light that was over the bed, becoming ever brighter...and soon I felt myself lifting out of my body and watching the dr's work to revive me. My mother cried out the to LORD, "not her, take me instead!” I was revived.

I was told that the medications were experimental, and that they had had an adverse reaction to each other, that was unexpected. The pain in my jaw, left me with TMJ (Temporamandibular Joint), which from time to time still acts up. It causes me to not be able to chew food easily as my jaw locks up.

A few more months past, and my mother, began to blame me for things that she had misplaced. At first I thought she just forgot about where something was. Soon it became apparent that there was something wrong. I called my older sister, who took mom to the dr. The Dr. ordered a sleep study and found abnormal brain activity. After a series of tests, they concluded that she had pressure building up on her brain, from fluid, and decided to operate. I was around 13 years old then. She was hospitalized. I remember getting a call from friends, and was going to go somewhere with them. The guy showed up but my other friends couldn’t make it at the last minute. My dad was distraught and not thinking clearly and allowed me to go alone with him. This friend, raped me that night, but I never spoke a word about the rape to anyone in my family. My mother had her surgery, and never recognized me or anyone else again. She lost most if not all of her memory. Still today, I am in awe of how the LORD used both of the situations to prepare me.

There is so much more to share. I wanted to share this, because this is something that I have pondered in my heart all these years. I went through being raped alone, and very scared. Why would the LORD take my mom away when I needed her the most, and why was I the strongest one in my family. Everyone around me broke down in tears, but I didn't have any tears then?

My tears begin to shed in private...and I knew that surely the LORD had heard my mother's plea that day, in the emergency room. I resolved myself to live my life for HIM, because of the sacrifice that she was willing to make for me.

01:35:45 am . 23 Mar 2014
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